Am I good enough?

Each day that I write, I smile, enjoying myself.  I get lost writing my story, wanting to know what happens next (just like any reader).  I am happy with the flow of the story, what the characters are doing, and happy with my word choices.

Then it happens. 

I start to second guess myself.  Why do I do that?  I think I write well, but just like any writer, there is always room for improvement.   People tell me they love how I write and I have been told that I have a unique style and to not lose that. But, when I look at another author's story, I become discouraged and stop writing.  I can't tell you how many stories I have started and pushed to the side because I didn't think I was good enough.  And now, I am going through the same thing I always do.  I tell my daughter to never give up and try your hardest, but it's easier said then done.

My sister-n-law is perusing an acting career.  I expressed to her how proud I am of her and she responded by saying "I just feel like you only live once so you should try to do whatever you want and who cares if u suck at it-at least u tried something cool."

She has a point.  What kind of role model am I to my daughter if I don't peruse the one thing I have always wanted to do...write.  My daughter has also started to write, she is pretty darn good too (she's 9).

So, if my amazing sister-n-law can peruse what she wants, and I have inspired my daughter to write, why not make them both just as proud of me as I am of them and finish a story.

It doesn't matter if I think I am good at the craft or not, it matter's what the masses think.  So, I am going to continue writing, the way I want, the story I want and know that no matter what happens, I did what made me happy.

The story of Lexi

I fell in love with the name Lexi 3 years ago and if I thought of this name when my daughter was born, well I would have named her Lexi :-)

One day while I was hanging out with my daughter, she told me that she wanted me to write a story about a Vampire and a Witch falling in love. 

Weird right?

So, I decided to humor her.  The name for the Witch had to be Lexi and my daughter came up with the last name--Reed.  As I started to plot out my story, I found that I didn't know as much about Vampires and Witches as I thought I did, but it's fiction, write it any way you want, let your imagination take over.  But, it does help to read up on your mythology.

I started visualizing my characters, Lexi, Sebastian, and Leticia.  The next thing I knew, I had my outline done.  Even when creating my outline I felt like I was there in the story, that I was Lexi!  I can see everything that is happening as well as everything that is going to happen so vividly.

Lexi Reed comes from a line of powerful witches and on her 16th birthday, she discovers just how powerful she is.  She lives with her Coven in a small town in Oregon and all of her life was told she was the chosen one.  Lexi didn't quite understand what that meant until she received her amulet and discovers all to quickly what it is she must do--destroy the most powerful vampire, Leticia.

Leticia is a very powerful vampire, she got her power by absorbing the magic from every powerful witch.  It just so happens that every powerful witch is related to Lexi.  The only way to absorb their magic is to kill them.  Leticia's power is almost complete, there is just one more witch's magic she needs to absorb, Lexi's.  Once she has succeeded, she will be powerful enough to give herself immortality.

Sebastian didn't want the vampire life and refuses to hunt humans for food and feeds off of animals.  Leticia came and destroyed his entire town and killed his true love, Josephine, and turned him into a vampire sensing that he will be useful in helping her achieve total power.   80 years later, when Lexi has turned 16, Josephine came to Sebastian begging him to help Lexi.

  Together Sebastian and Lexi plot how they will destroy Leticia, and throughout this process, fall for each other as well.

There, that is a brief little synopsis of my story.  If I went into more detail, I would ruin it for you and you would never read it ;-)  I still need a name.  Something catchy.  Hmmmm...perhaps the more I write it will come to me.

 If you have an idea I would love to hear it!!

How it began

I was sitting at my laptop writing a story not fit for young eyes, when my 9 year old daughter looked at me and asked, "Mom, when will you write something I can read?"  At that moment an idea popped into my overactive imagination and a story began to brew.  I know what you're thinking, not another story about a Vampire and Witch, but it seems that is what my daughter and her friends are in to.  Well, since I (as well as my husband) have over and over expressed to our daughter the joys of reading for pleasure (still a work in progress), I thought that if I wrote a story with characters she would like and a story she would love, it would encourage her to want to read and choose a book over a computer game.

As I began to plot out my story, I realized to keep their young attention, I need to split my story into 3 books and keep the chapters short.  The one thing my daughter complains about more than anything, is how long chapters are in some of the books she reads. 

My goal is to do something I really love, writing, and inspire kids nowadays to read (like I did when I was their age) and even write their own story.  Each day as I write more and more of my story, I am flooded with excitement.  I love to write!  I can't wait to finish book 1 and start working on book 2!